Saturday, November 19, 2005
LOL! I almost fell off my chair when I read the meaning of my birthdate. Well, you be the judge. :)Joanne climbed up to the tip of the rabbit's fur @
9:50 PM
Your Birthdate: April 25
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You excel at anything difficult or high tech.
In other words, you're a total (brilliant) geek.
It's difficult for you to find people worth spending time with.
Which is probably why you'll take over the world with your evil robots!
Your strength: Your unfailing logic
Your weakness: Loving machines more than people
Your power color: Tan
Your power symbol: Pi
Your power month: July
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Joanne climbed up to the tip of the rabbit's fur @
9:48 PM
Yay! Exams are over! Woots!
Almost the whole class went to Carls' Jr for dinner today. Although there were some problems considering the sheer size of the group, we made great attempts to have a class outing yea?
This is the best class outing ever! After dinner, we walked around marina square before taking a rest a the esplanade rooftop for Ben's sake. ^.^
I've never felt so carefree in such a long time. I felt the urge at that time to just sit there forever and not care about who I should account my whereabouts to and just prolong the time with the people I'm so happy with for the past 2 years. Besides, my hanphone ran out of battery. Which makes me uncontactable. Cut off from the apron strings temporary. What a nice feeling. To be away from anyone's control.
Joanne climbed up to the tip of the rabbit's fur @
12:29 AM
Wednesday, November 16, 2005
2 more days! Yay!
Joanne climbed up to the tip of the rabbit's fur @
8:51 PM
Friday, November 11, 2005
Tonight is one of the few nights when I'm alone at home - the fews nights when it is conducive to study. Yet, I'm not doing so. Even though I'm been reminding myself it's time to study, I must study. Must kan chiong! Not enough time already! But when I'm actually in the process of doing so, I just feel like giving up. Even more so today.
I hate myself for thinking that way. For being such a coward; to give up in the middle of the battle. What did chess teach you? Nothing is even determined until it's the end for the tables may turn at the end game. Whenever the disappointment hits me, I can't help but cry. After all the effort to put on a brave front in school, it's nothing but just a front. Many people believe that I'll do well. I'll like to believe that too. However, I feel as if I've been deceiving myself for too long. All the hope that I've put in during the mid-years and prelims are misplaced. The A levels? I dare not hope for too much. I know I'll pass but it's not a pass that gets you to the local university. It's good grades.
I don't know how I actually spared time for this but studying for the exams made me realise how going to a JC could have been a mistake - a big mistake. I was just following where the tide took me. Going where everyone thought was the best route and the route I should take with my results. I was also partly reluctant to decline the offer as most of my classmates are making their way to JC. I didn't want to be left behind or shoved off a different path from them. You could say I did not have a mind of my own. It's too late really. Too late for regrets.
In times like this, I really wish I was never born. I wish I was never put into this tumultuous world and left to fend for myself. There were times when my thoughts went wild but thankfully, I was timid. A coward as I've said before. I wouldn't act on them.
Joanne climbed up to the tip of the rabbit's fur @
8:17 PM
Saturday, October 29, 2005
A bit more than a week to prelims. It's the ultimate test for the past 2 years.
"Don't let it go to waste." I hear myself saying.
I've never felt so unconfident for an exam before. Yet, I put on a look of non-chalance. Really, I'm terribly scared. Sometimes I just feel like crying held it back.
"I'm doing it for my parents, I'm doing it for my teachers, I'm doing it for my friends and I'm doing it for myself."
Joanne climbed up to the tip of the rabbit's fur @
8:27 PM
Sunday, October 23, 2005
My tagboard is down but I'm too lazy to get it fixed. Sian ar! I think I've been using that every often lately. 15 days to As. I can't believe it. Time is passing so fast and I am definitely not prepared to beat it yet. Sigh! 15 days...I'm going at such a slow pace. I went back to school the other day and consulted Miss Goh about 2 maths questions. It lasted for 2 hours! She kept throwing questions back at me and I obviously couldn't answer them! If I could I wouldn't need to consult her would I? Infuriating! She kept saying "Joanne, you have obviously not studied yet" in a very exasperated tone which makes the guilt and disgust for myself build up. Like I do not know that I need to pull up my socks! I'm trying ain't I? Hah...15 days....
Joanne climbed up to the tip of the rabbit's fur @
10:09 PM
Friday, October 14, 2005
http://photobucket.com/albums/a56/jo_iedevivre
Joanne climbed up to the tip of the rabbit's fur @
4:10 PM
Saturday, October 01, 2005
STRESSED! I have no idea how am I gonna do well for As. It seems so impossible. Yet...there's this glimmer of hope. I must...I must...no...don't give up now.
Joanne climbed up to the tip of the rabbit's fur @
9:25 PM
